Gone again!

Well..... as I sit here tonight, I find myself pondering on this deployment.  No matter how much I tell myself that I can handle it, I sill come back to the fact that it SUCKS!!!!

John is gone again this week.  More training of course.  I understand that he needs to be fully trained (I wouldn't want it any other way) but it just plain sucks that he has to be gone yet again.  

Some days I just wish that It would just start already... It is almost worst knowing that we have a whole year to go and that year hasn't even started yet!  

I have begun writing in what I call my stress book! :0) lets hope it allows me to keep my stresses in one area and not plastered all over every wall of the house.  The last few days have proven that I really need to have this stress book at the ready every minute of the day!

Well, I guess I should stop having my little pitty party and get back to work cleaning the kitchen and doing algebra homework with the boys.  BLUCK!